Jumper Cables & Poured Salt

To those searching,

It has been a really long time since I’ve last blogged… almost 8 months to be honest. I regret to admit it, but the reason for the long lapse has nothing to do with busyness, but all to do with laziness. Yep, that’s right; I was bitten by the often poisonous apathy bug. Merriam-Webster defines apathy as a “lack of interest or concern,” but from my experience, I would define it as nothing short of a black hole. Those that have experienced Apathy know too well the emotional drain that it takes out of you. Like poison ivy, apathy starts small, but before you can blink twice it has spread to all areas of your life… emotionally…physically…mentally…spiritually.

Let’s flash back to October 20^th, 2010. The day burning under the son was born. That night I sat at my desk excited over the fact of starting something that was my own, something that could make others think, and something that could glorify God. I looked forward to writing and longed for the moment when an idea would come into focus. Simply put, I loved writing.

Now let’s flash forward to the present. Somewhere between January 13^th the last day I posted an update, till now, August 2^nd I strayed off the beaten path. Somewhere along the road from January till today I lost my mojo, my fire, my passion. Some would call it writers block; I would call it excuses. Truth be told, my heart was hardened.

In the words of Revelation 2:4 I had “forsaken the love [I] had at first”. When I came across these words from Jesus, who said this to the once devoted church of Ephesus, it was like pouring salt into an open cut. These words struck me at my core. I had forsaken the love I had at first. What I once longed for had become a burden, an obligation, a crushing weight. What had happened to me? When did I let Apathy get such a hold on me?

You see I write this to encourage the ones who have felt complacent, jaded, or hopeless. I too have experienced the silent killer of apathy, and it is from these experiences that I desperately urge you to find a spark that will burn down the walls you’ve placed around your heart.  Do whatever you have to do. Go outside and clothe yourself with the sounds of birds singing and crickets chirping. Turn your phone off and take time to reflect upon the conditions and anxieties of your life. Scream your frustrations to the upper reaches of heaven. I repeat… do what you have to do. If you roll over to apathy you will find yourself backsliding down a steep, snowy slope.

Find the salt and pour it in your life. Jump start your heart.

Don’t be like me.

Don’t spend  8 months in complacency.

Don’t forsake your love.

Merely,

Chris Gerac

“Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says." James 1:22,      NIV